Open your eyes.

I believe that there is always good in each and every person. The problem is that not EVERYONE will take the time to try find it. Most of us just take everything or everyone at face value. Let's face it, no matter how hard some people try to say that they don't judge by looks, their first impression is usually somewhere along the lines of appearance being 70% and personality being 30%, then eventually as we get to know the person, in the end, it will always come down to personality mattering more than looks.

I'm sure everyone has some friends that can be viewed as assholes, but the main fact is that we're still friends with them because we KNOW they have good in them. The world hasn't undergone a chaotic change recently because people change, people now realize that they have the choice to open their eyes to the bigger picture rather than turn a blind eye and carry a guilt sack on their backs.

Let me give an example, in 1945, the U.S dropped an atomic bomb on Hiroshima and Nagasaki followed right after. The entire world was astonished, powerless to do very much. Look at us now. Recently, after Japan faced a tsunami that wiped out hundreds, maybe thousands of people, the world didn't just stop and stare this time. Everyone now has the power to show support, and that's exactly what they're doing.

My statement is, we all have at one point wronged someone else, and I'm sure that most of us still have that hidden in our hearts. Right now, we're all living the way we do because of most of the things we've done in the past, but we're trying to make this better. Everyone has some good in them, we just need to look a little closer to see the good in other people just as much as we see the good in ourselves.

In Judaism, there's a phrase: "The world is broken into many pieces, and it's up to us to put the pieces back together." If you looks a little closer, we all have to work together, and then we eventually becomes those pieces. I believe that the future is bright, as long as everyone works together, we can overcome an obstacles. We are not alone in our troubles, there is always someone willing to help, we just need to take the hand that's already there.

Consideration, cooperation, unity, compassion.

It's in all of us. We just need to express it when we can.

M x

Crowded places, and sweaty asians

Now, there's always something there that irks everyone. An irk is let's say.....like a pet peeve? Sometimes it's people who irk other people, sometimes it's animals, or it could be something completely different all together. As for me, my major irk sometimes are crowded places. Like clubs or bars, or shops at the shopping mall. It makes you wonder what kind of person in good conscience would willing put themselves smack-dab in the middle of a crowd of people. Especially when it's humid, my god, I feel like i can barely breathe occasionally.

Now, as hypocritical as it sounds, when you're having fun, say a club, the crowd really doesn't bug you. But when you're not and kind of just standing there talking with some friends, it could begin to pick at you. Example, Earlier tonight I was at SOUL (a club in SG), and I swear, when I got home and got in the shower, i scrapped an inch of sweat off my arms, and worst thing is that i don't think it was all my own O_O;;

When people are crowded in a small area, when it's humid, and when they're dancing their pants off, people don't realize too often that for the amount of people walking by you after dancing, their sweat just rubs off on you. It's preeeeeeeetty gross when you really think about it. But all in all, tonight wasn't too bad. I sought refuge in the smoking chamber and M walked in and we had a really good laugh and talk about random things and then he walked me out and I got home in one piece. and maybe pieces of other people considering the sweat was a rather large amount to be mine as I wasn't dancing and sitting or standing around the whole time. But now I'm as clean as a whistle and basking in the comfort of my air-conditioned room. Shower pl0x?

M x

So earlier tonight, A really good friend of mine was having a party since it was his birthday. Now, knowing me, I left early because I usually get lost and also this was my first time ever going in that area, so I left an hour earlier at about 9 and the party was at 10. First off, I map the address to getting there and decide to bus it the whole way. I got lost for THREE hours (lol!). Finally found it and it was all shits and giggles until a few hours passed, but then it got weird. A few girls suddenly had a wave of PMS and were upset, and kind of depressed which really brought the mood down. I had no idea what they were thinking so i kinda kept on with my thing and talking with 2 of my good guy friends. Then weirder again. Soon everyone was segregated in these small groups and just talking within them, but whatever, most of us didn't really know each other and tonight was the first time meeting.

So onwards as the weirdness continued with everyone else, my guy friend (let's call him M) We were talking about something with D and cracking jokes and we have hugs and stuff, then when M hugs me, he starts sniffing (lol). Then when he pulls away, he says "You smell like cucumber salad....and....*sniffsniff* Goulash? (Venison stew or something)" apparently? So I start sniffing myself and I'm like..."...no?" Then this mad beast takes a bite at my arm. Haha, so lucky we were good friends so I already kinda know what kind of weirdo this guy is, and meanwhile D decides to go off behind some trees and drain his um.....special place. and I swore, he was perfectly aligned with this tree, i didn't know where he went until he popped his little head out and I was like "Oh! there he is! (lol)" Then a few seconds later, he didn't come back so I was wondering if he was STILL behind the tree. And he pops his head out again. and sweethearts, i don't mean the one on his neck. I mean his little friend. M laughs his ass off as I'm kind of doing the same. next thing you know, you hear girls screaming (hahahah). Oops, I guess he forgot that there were other people around, whoopsy daisy. Other than all that jazz and unspoken drama between the girls, tonight went along swimmingly. Tons of fun, and a day most of us need. Enjoyment and leisure with friends. Awesome pl0x? :D

M x

Learn to breathe before you really live

Okay, so I know that there's a lot of people who always say "Live for the moment!", but seriously....what IS the moment? Imagine if you kept holding yourself back for 'the moment' when you're not even entirely sure when it would be. Sure, it's okay to want to wait for 'the moment' if you'd like, but who ever said that it couldn't be "Live for the moments"? It's such a waste to only really LIVE once in your life. Everyone should spend more time living when they can. I mean, sure, as we all get older there are more things that pop up, like work, relationships, dispositions etc.. But I'm sure there's a thin line in the balance there that can prove both satisfying, and responsible at the same time! Life is too short to enjoy only at certain times, so every should go out there, have fun (but also being responsible to prior commitments), and instead of looking for 'the moment', enjoy what's in-front of you right now?

M x

May 21st

So My mom usually goes to play badminton on tuesdays and thursdays, so this morning, she wakes me up and says our driver can drop me off at the therapist and  hands me the money to pay the therapist after my session.  I put the money in my back pocket and grab my bag before she rushes both of us out of the house.  We go to pick up two of her friends and I end up being late for the therapist.  When the driver drops me off, I go into the 7-eleven and get a can of coffee, and as i'm at the cashier, I'm looking in my bag for my wallet and i realize, I left it at home.  DAMN,  So i pay with the 1000hkd my mom gave me and I rush up to the therapist.  He sits me down and asks me how the past two weeks were, then he starts digging up old memories of highschool for me, which weren't all that great but it was an okay session overall.  so when I want to head home, i'm about to step onto the escalator when a kid comes running up behinds and bumps into me,  I tumble.  ALL the way down, so now i'm all covered in ouchies TT_TT  Now i'm just sitting around doing nothing, and waiting for my mom to come home so she can give me my lunch xP  Hungry. Tired. Covered in Ouchies.  Hooray pl0x?

M x

11:50pm~

Alright, so my dad went to China day before yesterday afternoon, leaving me and my mom home alone.  Of course I didn't know he left until i tried to contact him on the cellphone.  Shows how well-informed he keeps me.  Anyways, my mom always sleeps early because if she stays up too late, she gets the chills and feels sickish (and trust me when I say early, I mean like 9pm). So my dad gets home,  RINGS the doorbell and our doorbell is loud...like really loud and then opens the door with his keys, so the moment he steps into the house I'm like "What the hell, Mom's sleeping, why didn't you use JUST your keys instead of ringing the doorbell and announcing your own damn entrance?"  So now my mom is awake and I'm pretty much just being called every 10 minutes to get her a cup of tea, or a hot water bottle, I mean it's not that I mind it, but she was sleeping really well and THANKS to my dad, she's not.

So anyways, I've been talking to one of girl friends in Germany, missing her like crazy, trying to convince her to come back to Hong Kong and stay.  Just the usual girl talk, mostly me making the worst typos or cracking up at my own joke, yes yes, I lead a very sad life :B

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So it's about 12:05am now, and I think my mom finally fell back asleep, unless my dad does something stupid again to wake her up. Trying not to procrastinate and work on my 2000 word essay on constructivism. Help plox?

M x

May 20th

So I've basically been bored all week and had nothing better to do.  Then one of my friends suggested making a blog since i was so incredibly motionless and just tired tired tired, and i decided to make a crack at it.

So my boyfriend left last week on tuesday to visit his folks in BeiJing and I didn't realize how much time we spent together until he got on the train, the minute i get home, i realize myself waiting for a call that i obviously wasn't going to get until June 3rd.  Just bollocks.  But I guess I can let it slide since it was to visit family.  So i have basically been meeting up with most of my friend which haven't been free for a while because they'd been working quite a lot in the past few months.  My best friend is having her usual adorable rendevous with her boyfriend which is all good because they're both cute as a button together.  

Besides that, nothing else has been happening.  Went to school, finished long assignments, hanging out with friends for a good 2 hours before leaving to get home.  Come home, working on the computer, checking my emails, checking my facebook, doing all the random junk that i do when I get home. Just basically me being a bum as usual.

M x